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for a few days. Maybe as long as a couple weeks. I am moving out of my current place and back in with my ex husband and our kids. The stress level here I can take no more of. I need to find my level of normalcy again. I need to find “me” again. I don’t like who I am when I’m living here. I don’t like being 2hrs away from my kids. I miss them terribly and it’s weighing on my heart like mad. I am going to be getting a home computer soon. Probably around the beginning of the month of Sept.
Tonight I got on the scale and seen that I have gained another lb! That insighted the binge that was to follow. And what a binge it was too! I consumed an entire bowl of Reese’s Puffs cereal…a half of a fried sausage (the horeshoe shaped ones)..and an entire grilled chicken meal from McDonalds! I have no idea what came over me. It’s depressing beyond belief that I’m allowing myself to do this again!
I’ve been giving some serious thought tonight of getting back on WW, and sticking to the very low carb lifestyle. This crash dieting I’ve been doing is obviously NOT working. I’ll lost 10 and gain 15 back. It’s ridiculous and after this night, I’m putting a stop to it all! I’ve decided that I’m going to go on a calorie budget. I’m going to allow myself ‘x’ amount of calories a day (kinda like WW) and that’s it. I’m going to start working out everynight and buy some work out tapes. I have my ipod now which is a great start! I just need to buckle down and get to it! So wish me luck, and I hope that the next time I visit ya’ll I’ll have excellent news and some BIG numbers to post!!!
Until then…
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